Plan B
Not a lot of ppl know about my plan B, which is leaving for good when i graduate, leavin the hell hole i live in and leavin everyone else in it. I thought about it ALOT, and it SUX.
Okay, i know how much i've been hurt and god knows i still get hurt alot from these ppl - family - but i can never leave them, how can i? I only think of all the good things i can do to all of them when i graduate and get a real job, like gettin my lil bro a car, and i love to think this way, i wasn't feeling like this when i thought about leaving them.
Sometimes i feel like chokin my mom, and mostta times i picture myself cuttin off my head and kickin it to the wall and see it breakin to zillion pieces, this thought makes me feel so damn good.
With all the headaches and the 3 white hairs i got from them, i still love them, and i will always love them, no matter what or how much they hurt me.
I even can't imagine my life without feelin bad, sometimes i try so hard to picture a moment that made me feel bad jus to feel normal, bein normal is bein with them, i'll always be with them.
5 comments:
Keep the blog up. Writing can be cathartic. There are some things on my blog that would be quite frightening to the unenlightened reader. Thanks for your blog.
Allah ye3enich 7abeebti... i know what you are talking about... my family is going through hell right now but i would never leave them.. awalha wa taaleeha, they are my family! inshallah everything will be fine :)
take care sis..... *_*
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Just hang on in there. Things will eventually get better for you. And yes, keep on writing, it does wonders for the psyche.
aww blasha it's ok...all families go through hard times, its great to see that ur good heart is seeing u through...hope u feel better soon luv ;)
thnx Casually me and hope to see u here again :)
Dreamer welcome to my blog @>--)-- and thanx alot sweeta ;*
JOjO welcome to my blog @>--)-- you have no idea how it helped me :D
Ms Milk luv ya more ;*
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