Only God Can Judge Me

A good friend of mine has messaged me after hearing the podcast, the one I loved so much for being in. Well, it's not like I said a lot of lousy stuff, girl, I didn't talk that much a9lan!!! Anyhoz, she said I shouldn't do it, and thas her own point of view and I respect it, but if you really cared for me you wouldn't send the first message as it is, you would've showed some love and care, and you jus showed that you dun care, instead, you showed me how much you care for a stranger more than me, and I won't call that friendship at all!!!

Girl, you hurt me, you made my heart accelerate and because of you I stayed in a hospital for a day and a half, and I even told you that and you didn't message or call!!! Hooray!!! What a friend!!!

There is something that few people know about me, is how sensitive I am, and how lil stuff can affect me. I always try not to show that, hell, I even tried changing who I am jus not to get affected by those people, but I've failed.

I'm not shamed of who I am, what I do and all that I've done in the past, I always try to learn from my mistakes and change myself to a better person, god knows that and I know that and I dun need anyone else to know that nor to believe in it, I believe in myself, and nothing gives nobody any right to judge me, not you not nobody.

My art teacher told me once, after I made a tiny mistake with my painting, she told me forget about it and try to finish up the painting, cuz no matter how much time you gonna spend trying to hide that lil mistake, it will only make it show and even gonna make it so clear. So if someone was threated in anyway about his believes or religion, jus keep it to yourself, and god will protect you and show the others how great you are, in a way or another. Don't try so hard convincing people how "Muslim" you are!!! As far as I know, Islam is in the heart and by attacking people to show how muslim you are, sorry, but that doesn't make you any different from all these terrorists from all around the world.

Sigh, at the end I jus wanna say that, you're ma friend and I'll always be there for you. And for those who didn't like the podcast, I won't say that I dun give a damn cuz I'm sucha nice person, but instead I'll tell you not to listen to it again. And for all those "muslims wannabees", podcasting is "7aram" as far as I heard, so I dunno what to tell you guys, since you keep listening to sumthin thas "7aram" in your point of views.

Finally, I'd love to tell Tat, Forza, EXzombie and Ananyah that I had so much fun and we should do that more often ^_^ and i'm also glad we made alot of you laugh, cuz that was the whole point :)

PS: "Definitions of creepy on the Web:

annoying and unpleasant; "some creepy kids were bothering her"

causing a sensation as of things crawling on your skin; "a creepy story"; "I had a creepy-crawly feeling"