The Way It Really Is

Have you ever met someone in your life and got this feeling that this person isn't nice at all, or evil? Well, I have...

There are alot of people in this word that fake kindness and sweetness jus to get to what they want, other fake it to get what they think they want and some fake it for the sake of fakin it.

When I was looking for a job a couple of days ago, I saw this hottie, I couldn't keep my eyes off of his butt :P he was so damn perfect, perfect voice, perfect skin, hair, eyes, lips... Even perfect butt... And then I saw a wedding ring in his finger and I knew I had to stop staring, so I had.

This guy he had a pink face, literary, it was so pinkish, and maybe thas why I was staring at him :P But the guy was faking it so bad when he was being interviewed, that even I could tell. But I can't blame the guy, maybe he needed the job so bad for his wife and kids, although I doubt that, he seemed so young, but still, shit happens you know.

Back to the faking not so nice people... I met someone not so long ago I had the feeling of them being mean and bad jus by the look on their face, but their way of treating me and their words were so nice it got me fooled. And I thank god I found out the truth about them 6 hrs before anything worse could happen to me. I really don't have a room in my heart for more aching and misery.

Anyways, maybe I'm here to say that first impressions are always right, at least 99% of them, so if ya met someone and saw evil in their eyes, then yer better off without them, you know what they say... Better safe than sorry.

Another Day

I jus got back to my cousin's place and it's sumthin past 5 PM, I really am sleepy, I was up for like 26 hrs, I was out mosta time, I don't recall any of what happened to me and I can't feel anything at all.

The good thing is that I got accepted in this lame ass job, but who's complaining?

I'm gonna start working next monday, I'm not that excited about it... This isn't my first job, so it can't be that bad.

My cousin is out mosta times, I barely get to see her, I feel so bad about her cat cuz no one's feeding it. I love her cat so much, it's so smart.

What else? Hmmmm

I got some sleeping pills, I'll be using one in about 2 hours, I hope it works for me like it always does.

I Love My DS Lite

Ever since I got my R4 kit, I've been loading it with alot of games and homebrew... I got addicted to it... And lately I heard of MSN client for the DS, called BeUP, but it was old that doesn't work on the new MSN server anymore... So I couldn't use it... And today I found out how to edit that server thingie to make it work :D and I did :D and it's working jus fine now :D

Hey Friends...

I WON'T TALK ABOUT HIM, DON'T TALK TO ME ABOUT HIM, YOU WANT HIM, YOU TALK TO HIM, NOT TO ME.

Day 1 and 2

I did...

• land.
• crash in.
• sleep.

I will...

• find a job.
• get a phone line.
• rent a car.

I'm Leaving...

Tonight I'm leaving Kuwait, leaving everything and everyone behind me... I'm NOT sorry.

To all the sweet people I know here in Kuwait, it was really nice meeting and knowing you... And to the other 90% of the weirdos I knew here, well, yer jus weirdos to me.

I can't wait to get on that plane...


I'M NOT SORRY!!!!

Good Day, By Jewel...

School Shooting

A gunman who shot dead at least 30 people before killing himself at Virginia Tech university was a resident Asian student, its president has said.

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Dan Scott

One Tree Hill is the name of the kinda like soap opera cool series where basketball lover Lucas Scott has a best friend, studious and humble Haley James, who later marries his previously judgmental and bad boy half-brother Nathan Scott, whose previous girlfriend was depressed cheerleader Peyton Sawyer, whose best friend is wild child Brooke Davis. Together, these five teenagers move through the everyday aspects of their personal and social lives as they face the cruelties of the high school world.

This show has four seasons so far, and I've watched them all in one week... The show is awesome, but I'm not here to talk about it, you can simply download it or buy it and enjoy every episode and even watch it all over again...

I'm here to talk about Dan Scott, the guy who thinks that he owns everything and everyone, hell, he think he's GOD himself or sumthin...

Dan can make your life living hell or heaven if he wants to, he can make u a king, a queen, or a servant... Dan can manipulate you, yer thoughts and yer feelings.

Dan is the only one who kills people and get away with it, and when their ghosts haunt him, he calls them stupid lil ghosts!!!

So far, there is no specific reason for his behavior other than his selfishness. But believe me, if you were in troubles, or anything horrible happens to you, I can guarantee you it's because of DAN SCOTT.

Dan Scott is an asshole, simply jus like some people in my life, Dan should die a horrible death... He shouldn't go to jail or anything, he should jus burn in hell. Someone thought of killing him in the show and another one even tried, but he only got his shoulder barely burnt out.

Dan is a hottie, or at least thas what most viewer think, but he's number one villain in all times, he does nuthin but but evil and deliberately!!!

I don't hate Dan, I am jus waiting for an episode with a justification for all the pain he's causing other people, and he better has a good one.

I Love You But I've Chosen Darkness

So many bloggers have tagged me with the weirdest thing about you tag and I've been holding it back for a while now... I really wanted to put some effort in it although I thought I ain't doing tags again, but hey, it's a material to blog about.

Anyways, It's not ready yet, but I guess I had to write about the weirdest thing ever, which is hurting myself, physically, wheneva I got hurt or heart broken. It's like the pain isn't enough already that I have to cut myself to feel it for real.

I tend to push people who care about me away so I can get hurt and cut myself, and for the first time in my life, someone saw that in me and promised himself he wouldn't lemme do that again, and I haven't eva since.

His love was so strong I didn't have time to think of anything bad, even though he screw up once or twice, but eva since he made that promise I felt so alive and so much better....

... Till today


I did it ...


I love it ...


It feels so damn good ...



AND I FELT ALIVE !!

LOL!!!

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A Quote

"There are two tragedies in life... One is to lose your hearts desire, the other is to gain it" - Shaw

Choices

Life is all about choices, you havta make the right ones to keep on the right track and you can make bad ones and lose everything you have!!!

You get to choose almost everything in your life... Some of us don't have that right, some have others to make up their minds or even make the choices for them... Sorry but those people are lame... If you don't get to choose your own life then sorry pal, I don't respect you!!! But what if it was me not being able to make my own choices? Or even was forced into some??? Will I lose my self respect?? OF COURSE

I can't live as a shadow, I am me, I make my own life, hell I've been through hell all alone without letting a single ass forcing me into anything at all and I won't let anyone do that to me ever!!!

For those who don't know me, I am the most stubborn person you'll eva come a cross in your entire life, YES it is my way or the freaking high way...

This doesn't mean I don't care about others, I do, I put stuff before my eyes and think day and night before I do anything at all...

I'm facing now two beautiful choices, the first is from K.O.C (Kuwait Oil Company), a job as a contract engineer with a high very high salary and another from an unknown company that I've neva heard of wanting me to work for them as a construction engineer and they sounded like they want me so bad claiming that they know all about my senior project from college and stuff, I told them about K.O.C and the guy said he can double that money just to get me working for them. I told him I need to think about it.

I always wanted to work for K.O.C and it was one of my dreams, I went through alot of examinations and an interview jus to get in... But those other people jus want me as me!!! They know who I am, They know alot about me!!! And I have three weeks to think before I start working for K.O.C.

I couldn't sleep at night, will I give up my dream job jus for money?!! I dunno... I didn't share those thoughts with anyone, I dun want another perspective... I know what I want, and....

I won't work for either companies... ME GONNA DO MBA (Master of Business Administration) :D

My First DS Lite Game

I just got Animal Crossing, and OMG it's so cute... My character has a pink hair, and I have nuthin to do with that!!! Even the house I live in is pink :D

I dunno what to do or how to play, I'll read about it when I wake up... Now time for me to sleep, but before that, look at my cool character --->

Thank You Daddy :*

Ever since I got my dad's current email addy and I've been emailing him daily, telling him alot of stuff and showing him alot of stuff as well... Last Monday I remembered how much I wanted a Nintendo DS Lite and I thought of letting dad knows that I want it (winks).

I had a horrible day this morning fighting with someone online... Walla I might quit chatting, nuthin good came from it neways... Anyways, I left home wanting to get some fresh air and I got a phone call from the hotel telling me I have a package :D

I went there faster than superman, not really, but I was excited what it was, and taaaaddaaaaaaa ---->








I love you daddy :*
I'll go shopping for games in a while :D

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