Part II: What Really Happened
I wanted to track down my ex's cousin through facebook, I wanted him to talk to my ex, to show him how much I need someone to be with me, I knew it was wrong for us to get back together, but I really needed someone who knows me to be with me. But instead I ended up finding someone else who has introduced me to my soul mate, I swear, this guy was EVERYTHIN THAT I AM!!! But he was of course a man, or so that what I thought.
We kept talking on skype for hours and days, I even missed work jus to listen to his voice. He made me feel exactly how I wanted to feel, there was NUTHIN boring about him!!!
So I decided to quit work, move back to Kuwait and spend all of my time with him, again, or so that what I thought. Anyways, I came back to Kuwait, he helped me find a nice place and a not so bad job. I didn't care about the job so much cuz he was taking care of almost everything.
This guy was so perfect for me but then we were watchin this movie and he made fun of "marriage" and all, and I asked him what's wrong with marriage, he threw my marriage experience to my face and I told him, still, that doesn't mean I dun wanna get married again, but he made it clear he doesn't want to ever. It wasn't ok with me, I couldn't stop thinkin about it, I DON'T WANNA marry this guy, but at least I'll know that our relationship is leading somewhere. So we broke up.
I couldn't handle him being away from me, so I called him within 2 days and everythin went back how it was except the one rule I made, which was never talk about the future, marriage or anythin related. And it was ok with him.
Everything was back to normal and I couldn't be more happy till that day when he got a phone call from someone outside Kuwait... The phone call lasted for 45 mins and afterwards he decided to leave and neva called nor answered my calls and my messages till a day later with a message telling me that he's getting married and we should break up.
I got MORE than freaked out, I might called him names, that part of the story isn't clear for me yet. But I was a bit harsh. Few mins later he told me it was a JOKE and he only wanted to see how will I react to it. But boy this has ended us for good.
I don't wanna tell the next part cuz I'm still trying to get over it. I miss him alot, I wanna call him everyday but my pride won't let me which I'm thankful for it.
He's still texting me once everyday and I'm still ignoring him.
The guy was nuthin but sweet to me, he helped me with lotsa things and that joke shouldn't get in the way, so I decided to forgive him, not because I'm weak but because I awe him that!!!!
So, I called and explained everything and he was it's all fine and ok, but I freaked out on him again once I remembered that message of his and hung up on him!!!!
I don't think I can eva get past this!!!!!!!
Sigh, what's wrong with me!!!!!!!!! He's so great, yeah sometimes I think he might be gay, but to hell with that, HE'S SO GRRRRREAT :'(
I didn't talk to him for 2 weeks, last night he sent me a msg and I ignored it. I dunno what to do anymore.
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On the other hand, I got accepted at KPC and I work at Ahmadi port now, I only started work last Monday, It's in the middle of the sea near the tankers and I'm the only gurl there and I'm so excited and HAPPY!!!! and the weather is so freaking GREAT there :D
8 comments:
congratulations on ur new job..and about the guy..dunno what to say.
thnx sweetie :*
He might be sweet; HE has made it clear there is no future. Trust your good instincts on this one, sweetie, and stay far away. Expect and seek the best for yourself and you WILL get it. This guy may be sweet but he is not serious, and you deserve a good man with a future.
Do you really think that u don't want to marry him? or u would like to think that way?
sometimes we ignore our very obvious wishes, subconsciously, for multible reasons. In your case, I don't think u want to be pressured.
my advice, accept the fact that this guy is not a future husband, and I mean really accept it (deeply).
This is the best time to work outdoor in Kuwait :) u r one of the very few who like their jobs here in Kuwait, good for u.
let me think :
you know him over internet and see him in kuwait he nice he excaiting he funny he your frind soo what not all frinds can be marry and not every one nice will still nice after marry looking around you you will find some one loving you very match and you not see him iam sour from this because every one have this one
{hug}
mabrook 3ala el job ! bas no comment
Ooh that's a hard one! I'm in a similiar situation.. sit back and wait:P
if it's what u want, wait it out.. but remember there is a high chance u'll end up heartbroken.. if you are willing to take the risk . . go for it! I know im the only person that will say this but wallah i believe u want something - u gotta fight for it :P
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