Things I Need To Review

I'll update this with more writing later  :P

To Shopa

Thank you so much for your cyber hug, it meant alot to me :)

Part II: What Really Happened

I wanted to track down my ex's cousin through facebook, I wanted him to talk to my ex, to show him how much I need someone to be with me, I knew it was wrong for us to get back together, but I really needed someone who knows me to be with me. But instead I ended up finding someone else who has introduced me to my soul mate, I swear, this guy was EVERYTHIN THAT I AM!!! But he was of course a man, or so that what I thought.

We kept talking on skype for hours and days, I even missed work jus to listen to his voice. He made me feel exactly how I wanted to feel, there was NUTHIN boring about him!!!

So I decided to quit work, move back to Kuwait and spend all of my time with him, again, or so that what I thought. Anyways, I came back to Kuwait, he helped me find a nice place and a not so bad job. I didn't care about the job so much cuz he was taking care of almost everything.

This guy was so perfect for me but then we were watchin this movie and he made fun of "marriage" and all, and I asked him what's wrong with marriage, he threw my marriage experience to my face and I told him, still, that doesn't mean I dun wanna get married again, but he made it clear he doesn't want to ever. It wasn't ok with me, I couldn't stop thinkin about it, I DON'T WANNA marry this guy, but at least I'll know that our relationship is leading somewhere. So we broke up.

I couldn't handle him being away from me, so I called him within 2 days and everythin went back how it was except the one rule I made, which was never talk about the future, marriage or anythin related. And it was ok with him.

Everything was back to normal and I couldn't be more happy till that day when he got a phone call from someone outside Kuwait... The phone call lasted for 45 mins and afterwards he decided to leave and neva called nor answered my calls and my messages till a day later with a message telling me that he's getting married and we should break up.

I got MORE than freaked out, I might called him names, that part of the story isn't clear for me yet. But I was a bit harsh. Few mins later he told me it was a JOKE and he only wanted to see how will I react to it. But boy this has ended us for good.

I don't wanna tell the next part cuz I'm still trying to get over it. I miss him alot, I wanna call him everyday but my pride won't let me which I'm thankful for it.

He's still texting me once everyday and I'm still ignoring him.

The guy was nuthin but sweet to me, he helped me with lotsa things and that joke shouldn't get in the way, so I decided to forgive him, not because I'm weak but because I awe him that!!!!

So, I called and explained everything and he was it's all fine and ok, but I freaked out on him again once I remembered that message of his and hung up on him!!!!

I don't think I can eva get past this!!!!!!!

Sigh, what's wrong with me!!!!!!!!! He's so great, yeah sometimes I think he might be gay, but to hell with that, HE'S SO GRRRRREAT :'(

I didn't talk to him for 2 weeks, last night he sent me a msg and I ignored it. I dunno what to do anymore.

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On the other hand, I got accepted at KPC and I work at Ahmadi port now, I only started work last Monday, It's in the middle of the sea near the tankers and I'm the only gurl there and I'm so excited and HAPPY!!!! and the weather is so freaking GREAT there :D

Swarovski Crystal Earphones

They're cute!!! You can get them from Amazon as well :)

Kuwait Kuwait Kuwait

I was taking a bath today and I heard some strange noises jus outside, they freaked me out!!!! I went out on the balcony and I saw this!!!!

Maybe I know zilch about politics and stuff, but boy that was so scary!!!!

In Between Lives

• I've quit alot of great jobs since I graduated.


• I've made alot of bad decisions.


• I came back to Kuwait.


• I will start my own business soon.


• I thought everything is finally falling back to it's place.


• Till the message I got this morning.... IT'S LIKE SOMEONE GRABBED MY HEART AND SMASHED IT INTO PIECES.


• How can something so beautiful be so ugly???


• How can something so right be so wrong???


• Conclusion: Any guy with even 1% of Kuwaiti blood is nothing but pure evil.
  

Update: Jus called to say all what I said was a lie... Now I know how you really feel!!!!!!! What kinda risky game is this!!!!!!!!!!!!

I Hate Zain, Take 2!

Jus got a WATANIYA line.... Will see how this goes.....

I Hate Zain

I simply hate Zain, I HATE IT, HATE EVERYONE THERE!!!! CALLS KEEP DROPPING AND THE NET IS DOWN AND 107 ARE BEYOND TRASH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I simply hate Zain, I HATE IT, HATE EVERYONE THERE!!!! CALLS KEEP DROPPING AND THE NET IS DOWN AND 107 ARE BEYOND TRASH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I simply hate Zain, I HATE IT, HATE EVERYONE THERE!!!! CALLS KEEP DROPPING AND THE NET IS DOWN AND 107 ARE BEYOND TRASH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I simply hate Zain, I HATE IT, HATE EVERYONE THERE!!!! CALLS KEEP DROPPING AND THE NET IS DOWN AND 107 ARE BEYOND TRASH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I simply hate Zain, I HATE IT, HATE EVERYONE THERE!!!! CALLS KEEP DROPPING AND THE NET IS DOWN AND 107 ARE BEYOND TRASH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I simply hate Zain, I HATE IT, HATE EVERYONE THERE!!!! CALLS KEEP DROPPING AND THE NET IS DOWN AND 107 ARE BEYOND TRASH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I simply hate Zain, I HATE IT, HATE EVERYONE THERE!!!! CALLS KEEP DROPPING AND THE NET IS DOWN AND 107 ARE BEYOND TRASH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I simply hate Zain, I HATE IT, HATE EVERYONE THERE!!!! CALLS KEEP DROPPING AND THE NET IS DOWN AND 107 ARE BEYOND TRASH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2:49 AM

I neva felt like this since my baby died and I had nobody around to comfort me...

I got passed those feelings where I wanted to kill myself...

My last post was one big mistake... I ain't gonna delete it cuz it made you guys laugh.

I gotta be up early for work, but I can't even sleep.

I should neva be able to think, ever...

I should have the ability to forget and let go.

Yes my life sucks but I'm making the best out of it.

Nothing comes easy, and I should start believing in people.

I think I'm gonna let that girl from work who keeps smiling and talking to me my friend.