Time To Leave

tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13609417.post-1123636455725059432005-08-10T03:53:00.000+03:002005-08-10T04:32:51.743+03:002005-08-10T04:32:51.743+03:00Time To LeaveI'm used to stay up for 2-3 days, as most of you know about my insomnia, and how much it's driving me crazy, cuz mos't of the times i imagine stuff, like lastnight, i've seen a shadow on my bed room, a whole man's shadow, i almost swear that someone was here with me, ok stop scaring urself, *sighs* But this week been rough, i mean it, first with my leaving thingie and just ended with my brother's motorcycle accident, i didn't even know that he can ride one, meh... And ya of course according to mom, it IS MY FAULT, i should baby sit a 17 yr old guy, and don't let him leave ma sight, at all,,, meh meh meh,,, i dun even know what to say, how to think or even what to do,, i kinda kinda think that i'm losin it,, ya i am I wanna sleep, i wanna eat, i wanna go out, i wanna have fun with my firneds, i wanna tell someone i love you, i wanna get hugged, o gosh, ya, I WANNA GET HUGGED SO BAD, i wanna feel that i'm 20 not 40, I AM 20 YRS OLD, i dun wanna be responsible for everythin, anythin, i jus wanna play with my kitty cat, i wanna watch TV, i've neva watched TV in the last 4 yrs, and i ain't kidding about that, and i wanna get huggedm dammit, did i say that again.... Well, I MEAN IT *sighs* :( I'm leaving them tomorrow, time to travel, i ain't leaving for fun, i'm leaving for them, to get some papers done, meh, even when i'm gone, it's cuz of them, yalla, alla kareem.. Maybe i'd get some time for myself, maybe i'd sleep again, maybe i'd watch TV while eating popcorn or chips, WHAT AM I SAYING i dun wanna leave :'( I HATE AIRPLANES, you know what does that mean.. being trapped in one place for a half a day!!!!! I guess not all of you do!!! i havta go overseas just to get some PAPAERS DONE?? does that make anysense to you??? Why can't anyone ova there do it?? Why can't the stupid embassy do it??? Why can't mom go??? Why me??? Why??? WHY?? I don't wanna go :( I wanna stay in bed, i left my job to stay in bed, not to travel to the other side of the earth, i jus wanna hug ma teddy bear and sleep, it's 4:12 am.. been up for like 51 hrs now @@ What the hell am i sayin?? HEY YOU TAKE A SLEEPING PILL AND JUS GO TO SLEEP.... SLEEP FOR GOD'S SAKE, SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHBLaShahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01008373821464813965me@blasha.com12