Am I Back?

tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13609417.post-55296941721290740602007-03-17T17:44:00.000+03:002007-03-17T18:05:12.191+03:002007-03-17T18:05:12.191+03:00Am I Back?Yes I am... Lots of bloggers and friends have been asking about me and where the heck have I disappeared... Well, I hate to tell you this, but I had a heart attack, <a href="http://blasha.com/2005/12/legal-at-last.html">YES AGAIN</a>... apparently I'm over stressing myself over worthless creatures, yes, creatures. because I shouldn't stress myself not even a lil over these people. and I should know better. Sigh, I've been telling myself why the heck am I doing this to myself? Nobody worths dying for, right? Well I hate to admit this, but I'm the kinda person that is welling to die for you, for anyone... I just hate seeing people sad, for instant, when <a href="http://thestallion.net/2007/02/15/msn-password/">Stallion</a> lost his email account, he never asked me for anything, but I helped him, I was so close to fail, and I don't think that he really cared about getting his account back, but I cared, more than him, I really wanted to help him, and I did. God knows how happy I was when I succeeded. I just love helping people even if it cost me something I love. And for you out these, who don't really know me, and don't know this about me, and started talking behind my back making others believe I'm a bad person, well, TOUGH LUCK, you just lost a wonderful person and a friend. I'm not saying that to show off or anything, hell NO, but I just realized what a wonderful person I am, I used to think of myself as a loser and has nothing good to give to people and as a nuthing, yes, I used to believe that I am nuthing, and I don't deserve living, but hey, I'm young, beautiful and a mechanical engineer, what else do I need? Nothing, nothing at all. And for all the bad stuff that happened to me in the past, I just like to think of them as a test from god, and I passed them all, not with honers :P but I did pass them and that what matters. Four years ago I never thought I'd graduate and I had and I'm so proud of myself and I should be more like this. So, from now on, I won't care much about other people, unless they cared about me of course... I will live each day as it is my last day and think of what I could accomplish... I will have more fun in life... I will go out more... I will meet new people... I will make new friends... And I will never look back at days like these, or perhaps I will and see how far I've got and how much I've changed and how happy I am. I'm not on my own anymore, I got another life to take care of and to live for, most of you know what I'm talking about here :) So I wouldn't let anything small and worthless get me like that again. I don't want you to get from this post that I'll change to a completely another person, NO, I'll stay me, but without all the garbage I used to drag with me. I'll love life more, and allow it to love me back :*BLaShahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01008373821464813965me@blasha.com16